happy birthday, mom?

I absolutely hate having to do something in front of someone else. I mean, I guess piano's fine when it's someone i know sitting there, but things like singing and composing music/poetry, any impromptu displays are practically impossible when i've got an audience.

Things I have to work on:

1. Continue keeping my emotional guard up
2. Stop losing temper so quickly.

My personality is just going all over the place this year. From extremely emotional to extremely apathetic, from contained to explosive, from caring to dispassionate. Why couldn't I just stay in one place (preferrably the one i had like a month ago, where i was rational and more focused?)...